Susan's Artwork via ArtLifting is in the Collection of:

Google, RSM Consulting, E*Trade, EmblemHealth, Alder Biopharmaceuticals, EMD Serono, AKQA, Onsite Dental, Lendlease, The Hartford and Warnermedia. She also has artwork available for sale on West Elm and Way Fair.

Susan Spangenberg is a multidisciplinary artist who also goes by her stage name Shyla Idris. Susan believes in transcendence through the arts. She is a member artist with the following organizations:

Outside In, Fountain House Gallery, ArtLifting, We Are Lions and a former member artist of The Living Museum as an inpatient and outpatient from 1995-2001. You can also view her work on Artsy and  Issues Gallery Shop on Etsy & Redbubble.

Susan has archived much of her artwork not included on this site on her Shyla Idris YouTube Channel  and her Facebook Artist Page under Photo Albums.


Susan's Bio / Artist Statement:

Susan Spangenberg is a self-taught multidisciplinary artist. Coming from a severely dysfunctional family which led to group homes and institutionalization in her teenage years, Susan cut her outsider artist teeth at Creedmoor Psychiatric Center’s renown ‘Living Museum’ art rehabilitation program. She was on the vanguard of the 'Girl Interrupted' female asylum artist wave that has in twenty years become the new normal, yet Susan has maintained the raw essence of that genre imbued with a twenty-first century sensibility.

Susan’s work is autobiographical, commenting on her experience in the mental health system as well as touching upon other areas of social injustice. Susan likes to incorporate text and writing into her art, including messages from her late twin brother Robert. There are also elements of spiritual symbols from her East Indian ancestry, samples of her psychotropic medication and hand sewn fabric throughout her work. She works in small and large-scale format encompassing textile, mixed media, painting and body prints.

Susan hopes to inspire generations of female artists to document their trauma, inequality, identity and how it has affected them and give them the freedom to speak about it as she has in hers.

"I paint so I don't kill myself. I create to stay alive. I've been suicidal since the age of three. I hope others will find refuge and validation through my work. Though I've been diagnosed with a mental illness, pain is universal. My goal is to not only keep myself afloat, but send others sailing."

Susan's UNSANE artwork has been described as raw, intuitive, impulsive, direct, emotional and whimsical. Her work has been compared to Art Brut, Outsider Art, Visionary Art and Expressionism. Her SANE artwork is Abstract. All of Susan's art comes from a personal place.

"When I first started psychoanalysis, I remember my psychoanalyst saying that half of me was crazy, the other half sane. We just have to get the sane part of you stronger. So, I decided to separate my artwork into SANE and UNSANE."

Susan's History:

Susan started painting and self-harming at the age of three.

Coming from an abusive household where she was the family caretaker, did not leave Susan any time for herself. The arts were not encouraged at home and she further isolated herself when she suffered the devastating loss of her twin brother Robert, dying of a drug overdose.


She did not pick up painting again until her early twenties, while a patient at Creedmoor Psychiatric Center’s art/rehab program, ‘The Living Museum' NY in 1995. Susan became the main subject of the HBO Documentary, 'The Living Museum' in 1999, directed by Jessica Yu. HBO funded the film based on Susan's footage. Having second thoughts and pulling out of the film led to a rift between her and the program's director, psychologist Janos Marton who manhandled her and threw her out of her studio, punishing her as a result. He worried about losing his position there and going back to work on the wards. There was a risk of the film not being made without her.  At that point the Office of Mental Health and Creedmoor were on the brink of closing the program, until the promise of a film would bring them positive exposure. Mr. Marton felt Susan should sacrifice herself for the other artists there.

For the record Susan states she was treated well by HBO, and had she not been living at home with her parents in better living circumstances, she would have remained in the film.  It is the hospital staff and administration she had a disconnect with. Upon losing her connection at The Living Museum, Susan spent ten years in her bedroom rarely going out or making art as her Depression worsened.


Feeling a loss of community with her former art program, she turned to acting, writing and film to express herself. So began her journey of socialization and telling her story of physical and sexual abuse, racial identity, growing up with poverty, violence, alcoholism and the unforgiving diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. Susan currently has the diagnosis of Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, but chooses to pay less attention to these labels.


Failed by the system after forty plus hospitalizations and five suicide attempts, Susan decided to pay out of pocket for a private psychoanalyst, Hubertus Raben, who she says changed her life. He supported her along her artistic journey.

Susan spent thirty years in and out of mental hospitals. Her story is reflected in her work, revealing the trauma that brought her into the mental health system, the horrors endured in the asylums and the insight and awareness that allows her to transcend and heal.  


She joined Fountain House Gallery in 2015 and ArtLifting in 2016 and so regained a sense of community she had lost.

Susan never knows what she will work on next. She goes wherever her mood takes her. 


She thanks her psychoanalyst, Hubertus Raben for being her lifeline and dedicates her work to her late twin brother, Robert.

“Art allows me to express the thoughts and feelings that terrify me. The act of creating is painful but healing at the same time." 



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